Easy to Get Insecure

I'm easy to affect. I get so insecure too fast. I hate it, it's not good for me, that I feel bad because of it. I'm so scared of getting rejected by someone that I need to check my inbox all the time and see if the person is online. Internet has done nothing good to me and it just makes me sick. Hope I will feel better tomorrow and that I won't feel like this.

I'm the kind of person that would do anything for a friend. I always put their needs before mine.

(picture is Pon and Zi made by Jeff Thomas)

:)

I'm In the middle of the night...

Thinking about how I would like to hold someone near me when looking over the surface of the water. How I would love to have someone kissing my lips and saying that I'm the most beautiful person they've ever seen. Wanting me for who I am and like when I say random things and likes that I can act a little crazy sometimes out of excitement.

Gosh!! I really need to stop watching girly movies and happy ending stories. But what would life be without fantasies?

In Love With a Celebrity?

I'm a teenager and a girl. I've listen to two or three Justin Bieber songs and I love one direction's album "up all night". I actually think the guys in 1D and Justin Bieber are good looking. I would love to go to an one direction concert.

The thing is that I'm not obsessed about these singers. I don't even know the name of everyone in 1D. I don't understand how two girls can fight over stuff like: "you spelled his name wrong". That's insane! How some change their life to forever be a believer or a dedicated one direction supporter.

How can you say you love a celebrity and that you want to marry him/her when you don't even know them?

Dream of independence

I had a dream last night about my life in school and love. I can now say that I deserve someone good and also I'm no longer jealous of other girls. I won't judge them before I really know them. Gosh I feel like a terrible person after this dream, it was really a wake up call.

Even if I say I want someone, my first priority is going to be school and then can things happen to me if they want. I wont try anymore.

Rainy day! Tips.

Unfortunately it's raining outside today. Not so much you can do about it and you cant live out your Swedish summer to a hundred percent. So I'm going to give some random tips what yo could do.

1. Write a list about all the stuff you want to buy for next term.
2. Sleep through the day.
3. Read a book
4. Find someone to cuddle with all day. (for me...my cats)
5.play board games with your friends or family.
6. Write down what you will name your children when you grow up.
7. Look on your favourite movie again or old Disney movies.
8. Bake something. (try LCHF, both good for you and really tasty)
9. Have a makeup day at home and take beautiful pictures with a friend or a family member.
10. Plan your future.
11. Write a book.
12. Play the sims 3 (lol)
13. Looking funny movies on YouTube. (Dave Days is my favourite!)
14. Write a song
15. Play a sport!
16. Draw in a children paintingbook.
17. Eat
18.listen to music!
19. Blog!
20. Try outfits (discover clothes you never thought you would wear again)
My parents don't have any money, so my suggestions is for what you can do without money. :P

Pictures

Haha.

Mixed feelings.

Does he really deserve my love?

He keeps changing his mind about our relationship. One second he can say to me that he just wants to be friends and the next one he says he can't be my friend when he likes me so much.

He's so insecure and I don't even know how many times he has changed his mind about this.

Does he really deserve my love?

Love Comes back to beat you up again

How can he make me feel so bad.

Just one hour later he tells me he regret that he left me and gave me a love explanation again. I was really tired and asked to talk to him tomorrow.

He said, never mind then and goodbye. I'm so sad now, I just wish he could talk to me again, cause I already miss him.

Then later I upload a photo on a site and only 15 min later he uploads a really hot picture on himself and writes. Love my life I'm so happy.

Half my ice cream left...

Love is just something that's going to leave you...

So I'm going to tell you guys what've just happened.

A few days ago this guy texted me and said he liked me. I got so happy because I've liked him for a while.

To days later we decide to meet next week to see where it can lead.

Now I'm sitting on the floor crying and wondering what've just happened. I guess he was cruel to use my heart and then stomp on it.

So now I'm going to get tough, going to eat some ice cream and have fun!