School of love

School has started which I love! Although my class has a schedule that make you angry! My mentors were talking about how we need to spend our last year with friends...then I find out that we don't have any breaks with the other classes.

Also my friend and his girlfriend Have it pretty rocky in their relationship. While they are on the way to break up I'm trying to make this guy who were mean to me this summer miserable. I'm trying to be as beautiful I can and will only like his photos on instagram if they're good, ONLY. I want him to see what he missed out.

I don't want to be alone...or do I?

When I walk around in the town where I have my summer place I feel so alone. I'm with my mum and a gang with boys and girls walk by me. I miss that! I've felt that feeling twice in my life, I'm not somebody's priority who they want to hang out with.

I want a girl friend who I can call and text with just silly stuff and that will come home to me if I needed her. I want a boyfriend who I can watch movies with and touch his skin and feel that he's mine. Yeah I'm lonely when it comes to summer, I know that it must be my fault, but I've always been me!

Although I like to be single. When I go out most boys are looking at me and I get the feeling I can get one of them. It's a fun feeling, but I'm mostly just scared for getting a boy. I feel I need to mature a lot, but I guess you're never ready for a boy.